I know for a fact, that watching scenes where I lose people I still love will cut me deeply.

You know, when you made mention of your loved ones and how you might possibly be much more happier to rewatch a moment with them, I also guessed you're bound to feel the hurt.

It's a bittersweet thing. Getting to rewatch but not to actually spend a moment with them.

Everything has its perks and with the perks, equally comes the downsides tagging along and you did well to lay it all down.
Personally, I want nothing more than to forget about my dreams due to the fact that I have more of chilling nightmares than any other. Rewatching them would be a death sentence.