hey :)

I should not be pausing what I'm doing - to read - or reply to posts right now! LOL but I somehow missed one of my teem a few days ago, distributing to wallets - and when I came here - saw I had a notification, saw it was from you - and decided to come read a post from you! :)

I think anyone who reads this (really reads it) can feel your fatigue right now. It's radiating off the page and I just want to recognize that, and empathize.. truly, when you hit that spot - it just... it hurts. Makes you really start questioning things. Makes you think "how did I ever think this was going to be sustainable?" hehe cuz energy eventually hits its max! And if you don't have people surrounding you that are pouring back in, stepping in, shouldering some of the tasks... reminding you why you do what you do.... burnout is eminent.

It sounds like you're at the precipice, my friend.

Last year we had a major blow dealt to us - and I stripped everything back to almost 1. I made it so that only the people who really cared, would bother to stick around. And it went down to the bare minimum (scary? yep. necessary? yep. would I do it again? absofrigginlutely.)

Because after that year - I realized... we have QUITE a core group that gets me, gets each other, gets what I do, and gets why I do it.

You might want to take out your measuring tape and see who actually makes the cut.

Because I - for one - had to realize that not everyone who I brought it with "my magnet" was there for me - or even for any other soul. And I was expending MYSELF for the good guys... along with the countless "bad guys".

In my book, bad guys can sometimes earn a chance too! But they absolutely do not deserve my devotion.

So - maybe go back through your to-do list and ask yourself - what is REALLY adding back to my projects? to me? to the community?

...And what is actually draining ALL of that.

Identify it and SLASH it off your table and do not waste another second on it.

Don't know if you'll see this any time soon... and if you reply - don't know if I'll see that soon! (I'll try to check!) hahaha so - just take it for what it's worth, and take 3 really really deep breaths. slow. deliberate. and then get to it :)