Dear Fifteen-Year-Old-Me:
Somehow, through the magical wizardry of time-travel science, I have been able to write this letter and send it back through the ages to you, my younger self, at a most pivotal time in our life. I do not have long, so will not be able to wax as poetic as I might like, so I shall get right to the point.
Now, the problem with writing a letter to you is that I may be tempted to give you pause to make different decisions in life. The problem with that is that we are all the sum of our historical components and, right now, for me, we're doing okay. The children are awesome (or, at least, have the potential to be) and, for the most part, we're the happiest we've ever been; if not happy, then perhaps mildly content. If I were to suggest some specific changes to you then I wouldn't end up where we are right now, and who knows what could happen.
So, that said, I know, right now, you're going through some things. You're confused as, quite frankly, most fifteen year olds are. You may not realise it, but you are. So allow me to give you some advice that should not drastically alter the course of our history.
First, a reassurance: it will get better. You are confused, and that's normal. It will all come clear and you will be alright, but I would like to offer some suggestions for you along the way:
Trust people. Seriously. I remember being you at fifteen: the people you should be able to trust are not trustworthy and they are instilling in you a deep, dark cloud of mistrust amongst everyone. You're at a very impressionable age, your parents are useless and are using you as collateral in their cold war against each other. Your mother likes to tell you that the only reason people do nice things is if they want something in return. Your father blames anyone who isn't an english speaking white person for everything that confuses him. Ignore them both. Trust people. There will come a time in your life when you need to trust people and you can't because of what's happening right now; please, please, please understand that most of the people you will meet are genuinely good people.
Learn to take responsibility. It's easy to blame other people for your woes in life, and you've so far been raised to do just that. Don't do it. We are not always able to effect our current situation, but we can definitely choose how we react to it. Be the better person. People who lay blame on others for their plight are not worth your time.
At some point in your life you're going to do a 180 degree turn. Right now you enjoy reading, going for long bike rides, and seeing the world around you. Ultimately you'll end up being so busy and trying so hard to make up for lost time that reading becomes an intrusion that takes too long and you bike ride to burn off the lunchtime burger. Learn to slow down. Seriously, dude. Slow. The. Fuck. Down. Quit running a mile a minute. Keep reading. Do things because they're fun, and do it with other people. Remember, you can trust them.
Do not let people make you think less of yourself than you deserve. I know, I remember your current situation; you feel guilty for your very existence and don't think you deserve to be happy or successful. This, too, will get better. Your parents aren't your fault.
Reach for the stars. You are better than what you're made to believe. Find your strengths and your inner "Fuck You" attitude. You will eventually learn it, but the sooner the better!
Be creative. It's what you really want to do. Right now you want to write for a living but are led to believe that you need to be more 'business like.' Fuck that. You're going to end up in IT quite by accident. Get out of it as quick as you can. Write. Get involved with a theatre. Take photos. That's where your heart lies. Do it before you're stuck in a rut and don't know how to get out. Besides, being creative is a lot of fun.
Some other pieces of advice:
As soon as you hear of bitcoin, buy it. As much as you can.
Same goes for Google.
And Amazon.
Learn a second language. And then a third.
Stay away from married women. Really. Nothing good will come from it.
Learn judo.
Learn to dance. Then teach your children.
Some answers to some questions I know you currently have:
- Yes, the Calgary Flames will almost always suck. But then again, so do the Vancouver Canucks.
Other answers to questions, in the order than you're thinking of them:
- Yes, yes, yes. No, yes. Hahaha, um, no. Fuck yes! And the jury is still out on that.
Now, go tackle the world. Ride your bike to the zoo and stop at Tim Horton's on the way back - you know, the one right beside the river. Enjoy a donut while you're still young enough to be able to burn it off easy. When you get back home start some serious work on that story you keep putting off, The Knights of the Periodic Table. Don't make me have to do it now when I have so many other things to do.
Reach for the stars, and know that you're awesome.
Regards,
Your Much Older Self.
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