Very impressive piece of writing, @wwwiebe. Seriously, this is amazing. It sounds to me like it was a very good exercise for you to go through, and that you solidified some great realizations about your life and the direction you have chosen for yourself.

You're at a very impressionable age, your parents are useless and are using you as collateral in their cold war against each other.

Ouch. It must have been tough to come to terms with that and find your way forward. I say that because I can really relate. A confused 15 year old does not cope well with family strife and parents that cannot be trusted to be emotionally intact.

I remember your current situation; you feel guilty for your very existence and don't think you deserve to be happy or successful. This, too, will get better. Your parents aren't your fault.

Damn. That is really hard stuff. It's so great that you found your own path, chose not to let their way of being form you completely, and decided not to take the blame and to become a better person than the mold set out for you!

I loved reading about your decision to choose a path of creativity, making choices and being with people who fuel you instead of tear you down. What a great life story.

Reach for the stars and know that you're awesome! Love it.