Greetings Steemians,
I hope you're all doing well today. I'm feeling better physically today than yesterday, luckily the fever symptoms are pretty much gone now.
Yesterday I talked about boundaries.
nile, pixabay
I mentioned that although the past is not an accurate way of telling what the future might bring, there are certainly "indicators" that when measured up to probability, might produce certain results, if you will..
At this point in my life, it is not likely anyone will convince me otherwise. Things just keep happening and I am far too good at "seeing it coming."
I had an incident (relatively minor I suppose) occur in my place of living, and I've had enough. I'm taking swift action to find a new location to live.
So let me tell you all about it, and if anyone thinks I'm being illogical, by all means let me hear it.
I was preparing to go do laundry in the morning, because of the fact that I am a bit paranoid about the neighbors potentially breaking in my apartment to supply their drug habits, I was installing a home security system.
I successfully completed installation of the home security system, which I was pretty satisfied and happy with.
As soon as I finished I heard someone creeping up the stairs. At 3 AM....
Then a knock on my door...
To say I freaked out would be an understatement.
I screamed insanely loud through the paper thin door, asking who was knocking on my door and if they had lost their mind.
It was one of the new downstairs tenants, asking if I had a smoke I could spare.
I screamed yet again NOOOOOO.
And away he went without another word..
Is this normal to anyone here? (not my reaction, it's probably not normal, and I recognize that, but some stranger knocking on your door at 3 AM, is that normal?????)
In my world it is not only not normal, it's highly disrespectful, and for a cigarette? Really???? A CIGARETTE?????????
I've lived in my current residency for over a year now, and things like this have been constant.
Prior reports of noise ordinance disturbances have been a joke. The police department here doesn't seem to care about documenting when a veteran with PTSD calls and says there is a potential for violence to occur. Nope, but they sure will slap some hancuffs on you when something does happen.
So, I got this documented through use of the veterans crisis hotline, as well as the lovely Steem blockchain!!!
And these have been my go to methods throughout the past year, because I refuse to be a victim of the court room ever again. The accused generally get railroaded, so you better have some documented proof, and/or video recorded proof if something goes down.
I am calling the VA at the start of business hours to see if they can assist me with finding a new place. The VA homeless program helped me to get this place, and I am so very grateful for their help and assistance, but I also explained in depth my triggers for relapse, my PTSD symptoms, and stated that I suffer from debilitation if I am not in a place where I feel safe and can live in quiet enjoyment of my personal space.
Since the knock it has been nothing but loud music and doors slamming, as I write this at 6 AM in the morning. It has been nonstop.
I just can't take it anymore and refuse to.
It was really so much work to get clean from the grips of alcohol and cocaine addiction. I have 3 years clean and I am housed with active drug addicted people. Of course I know what they are going through and feel for them, but that does not mean I want to be this closely associated to the people, places, and things which lead to death and prison.
Hopefully they will be able to help me with some kind of resources, I am not relenting this time. I've had enough.
I guess that's all I really have to say on the topic. The purpose of this post is both for venting/coping purposes, as well as documentation, because let's be real about something.... There is nothing logical about knocking on a strangers door at 3 AM, so I have to assume literally ANYTHING could happen, and I will have a ton of documented evidence to prove my innocence, should I be forced to defend myself against an assailant again.
If you are mighty with the sword, you better be mighty with the pen as well, because the pen truly is mightier than the sword. We all have the intrinsic human right to live, and it is my opinion that no human being has the right to harm another. When faced with the threat of violence, if violence is imminent, you must be able to prove you were in self defense for the protection of your life. (especially if the assailant sustains injury) I cannot stress that enough. Has anyone threatened me? No. Do I see a potential for violence? Absolutely. No sane individual knocks on a strangers door at 3 AM.
Thank you for stopping by.
I hope you're all having a wonderful day.
Much love,
@futuremind
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