Hi @owasco thanks for your encouragement, but still it is still hard to live this way. I do not have any idea now how it feels like to get normal again.
If I would get the necessary funds to get a kidney transplant I will do it no matter what are the risks for me just for me to taste again life as it should be without dialysis and awful side-effects of my expensive and hard to endure Parathyroid medicine. :/