Today's weather is still cool, in fact in the morning it is still hard to take a bath because we do not use water heaters, my parents only used to heat water from a kettle and pour it in the pailful of water where water is scooped by a dipper. So it is just not nice to take a bath especially for my body who happen not to have not much body fat to insulate me from the cold because I get the shivers plus my limbs gets cold and it is not a nice feeling.
I can only endure the cold water a bit because of my non-anemic disposition, had I've been like in my former unglorious years where even a cold drink will make me rush under the blanket because it makes me feel like I went dipping in a pool full of ice.
Those years are not over still because even though I am not anemic anymore I am still uncomfortable with the cold because of the said reasons. Right now the air is cool, I have to still use an electric fan because I can't be still without it. For one thing it wards off some of the mosquitoes and also helps to cool me off but I get my feet and hands cold so I have to use a blanket but a few moments under the blanket I would just feel uncomfortable again because of the heat.
I really cannot just turn off the electric fan because I also needed the white noise it creates because of my ringing ear syndrome where it is just a torture having this condition especially if the surroundings is quiet and it is like the same effect as you would hear a noise. That is why I could not maybe tolerate it being in a peaceful place, I have gotten used to the noisy place already.
I just realized that every part of my body now has a defect, my eyes, my hearing, my internal organs except maybe the pancreas and spleen, even my lungs are always drenched with fluids. My liver has two viruses attacking it as well.
I told myself many years ago that I would try to have my liver treated with anti-viral medicines and I have learned that it can still be not 100% effective, the liver still gets scarred which might require one to have a liver transplant. That is with a problem with my liver alone and with two viruses. Talking about getting trodden upon after you are down.
Now if I would sum it all up, even if steem would go high as much as 12 dollars per token and BTC would go 300K tomorrow I will not still be able to regain back what was lost. Maybe I will get to accomplish some of my medical goals but not all as I know that it takes more than money to fix me up now, it will definitely take some luck as well as a miracle and more cash to fully restore me.
What I just want for now is my ability to enjoy food and the freedom of not worrying a bit about having to suffer any more pain if I would not take my Parathyroid medicine. For ow it is my goal and let God do the rest for me. @steemyoda