I do not know if I would feel happy or sad or whatever because everyday I am just toiling around here in this community particularly just to make some buck or two which I am using for my daily medical needs. I just have to produce some money because no one really around even from my immediate family members are handing me out money to buy my medicines.
My medicines are very expensive, not much people or dialysis patients can afford it. I am just able to buy it because of my earning here from steem so if steem value would go up it affects my emotions, of course I would get happy and a bit sad if the price goes stagnant or even really fall which I just mentally accept as good because I could accumulate more steem because of that.
Ypu could say that I am just any other worker out there but I am different, I can work nonstop everyday. In fact I am doing it for more than two years now ever since I started social blogging from June 2017 and after I initiated my first post I got hooked already. Plus due to the fact that I was really in need, that was my proponent in just pushing myself everyday by posting my thoughts because I am reaching out to the community to lend me a hand because of the peculiarity of my case as I am a dialysis patient with severe pains and bone changes due to my Hyperparathyroidism.
I had caused another condition that is called "Leontiasis Ossea" a bone deformity condition of the facial bone where it enlarges making the patient look like a lion hence the condition called a Leontiasis or "Lion-face."
I thank God that so many steemians as I call them or my friends in the background that showed support. It is a good thing that I was able to enter the steem platform realm when steem is mooning and a lot of steemians are just empowered with their stake and they just helped me with some left still showing support.
That is the reason why I am just working myself out even when I am not feeling well because of course the earnings and secondly I am enjoying writing. Some people here do not mind my work because they know and understand my intentions but some just sees me as an undesirable part of the community and it shows in their actions. I do not mind them because I just want to always see the good side of steem where people shows love and it is just the thing that I want to cling on here because I have goals to keep and a game I wanted to stay on all for my efforts of self preservation with the blessings from God. May God bless the steem community.