The thoughts of you linger; making me so blind
Halting me to see the love that's laid in front
Making the feelings so difficult to confront
Undeniably, I'm still under your spell
Though nobody else could ever tell
For I tried to hide it in the deepest part of my heart
The fact that I'm still clinging desperately since the day we're apart
You were the sun that brightened my day
My tears, you dried them all the way
Your voice still constantly echoes in my ears
Making me reminisce both laughters and tears
Thoughts of you taste so bittersweet
Painfully knocking me off my feet
This feeling is indeed a ludicrous abyss
I wonder if I could ever escape from this
@tegoshei
It's poetry time!!!
Why is moving on from a lost love so difficult? This isn't just my experience, but in a more general sense. Recently, the manga and the anime I'm reading and watching somehow tackle this issue and it made me think as well.
I guess it's easy for some people to say, "Stay away!" or "Give up on that relationship! It's not healthy!", but the people involved in it find it super difficult to do so.
Some say, in order to move on from a lost love, you have to love someone else... but I wonder, isn't it unfair for that "someone else"? In the BL comics called "Love OR Hate", the other guy told the main character, "Why don't you love me instead of him?" And the main character answered, "I still have lingering feelings for him and it would be unfair for you." However, the other guy answered, "Take a chance and love me. Even if you're just pretending, I won't mind."
Just WHYYYY? And guess what, in the end, he left the other guy and chose the guy he loved first even if it's toxic for both of them. But somehow, it's really difficult to understand one's heart. I don't even understand my own heart, but one thing is for sure... I won't use someone else. I'd rather be alone... or wait until I could fully open my heart again.
I don't know if it's because of the comics or the anime I'm currently watching that I'm feeling like this. Despite the fact that I'm trying to open my heart again, something is still blocking it from opening fully. Anyway, time will tell. For now, I'd like to focus on myself and my family. I want to do the things that I enjoy doing. :) It's less stressful than thinking about a lot of things. haha
Anyway, I'll end this post here. See you again!!!
Pictures were sent to me by my friends... I only edited the first one, but credits go to him. :)