HOME ALONE WITH YOU
Peaceful yet solitary, away from all the mess
Since the day I have lost my will to live
I have long forgotten how to truly breathe
What was my reason for living?
The world I'm in is never forgiving
I am here... yet in isolation
Learning how to survive in seclusion
And yet, a stone disturbed the stillness of my water
Patiently and carefully, as if my situation didn't matter
You have introduced light to my darkness
Will you also be able to fill up my emptiness?
Selfishly, I attached myself to you
But along the way, my worries also grew
What if your brightness blinds me in the end?
It will absolutely be a wound impossible to mend
When my past haunted me once again
I could no longer stand the sorrow and pain
Even with you, I felt myself shatter to pieces
Tears flow unceasingly; my anxiety increases
You held me tight close to your heart
Your heartbeat calmed me; didn't want to part
You whispered words full of care and assurance
I'm slowly discovering my existence' significance
Slowly, I took a step in the present; leaving my past
But surely, happiness isn't bound to last
I discovered a truth about the man who I thought has saved me
I tasted defeat and bitterness; is this how it should be?
You weren't here to save me; but to cure your own loneliness
You used me... I once again found refuge in the darkness
But in the end, it wasn't all for naught
"Live again" for me, that's what you taught
I swallowed my pride and braved the light to follow you
The you who was also waiting to be saved and start anew
With you by my side; I'd no longer walk alone
Hand in hand, we moved forward to a world unknown
@tegoshei
Here's another original poetry I made yesterday. Actually, I was inspired to write this piece after reading a certain Korean comics which is entitled, "Incidentally Living Together" or "Home Alone With You", which is also the same title of this piece.
The manhwa is a deep BL story. It was about a "hikikomori" or a social outcast who has never left his house for the past three years. What triggered him to become one was the mental and physical abuse he received from the people around him after his parents died. His relatives took all their money and blamed him for his parents death. All that was left was a good friend who treated him as a brother.
This friend is seriously trying to save him because he too has lost someone because of depression or mental instability. Seeing his friend reminded him so much of that person. Unfortunately, he couldn't do it on his own because he's also weak... however, he found someone who he thought could help.
That someone also happened to have a dark past. He recently just got out to the world after isolating himself for a couple of years. Deep inside, he wasn't healed yet, and he was longing for someone to fill in the space that was left in his life.
They were introduced to each other by that common friend and started living together. They discovered a lot of things about each other and about themselves. There were times when they thought they only needed each other's warmth and equally satisfied each other. But their problem is much deeper than they imagined.
I personally love the story as it is relatable especially in this modern world. A lot are suffering from depression. It's there... unknowingly destroying people. I, too, have experienced it. It's never easy, so I can truly sympathize with the characters.
I hope people will learn to listen and open their arms, hearts and minds to these situations. If you're interested in the manhwa, you can read it on Lezhin. :)
I'll end my post here. Thank you so much for checking this out. Until next time! See you... Keep safe, and have a great one! (^^,)/