My 4th Hive Birthday and my failed story!

in OCD4 years ago

Sharing my experience with You

My 4th Birthday here on the blockchain and with this community is almost here. And in all honesty now that I look back and that I look to what I have build here... I feel sad.

I don't have much to show!

Less than a week away to be my 4th birthday in here and I have accomplished very little. Monetary and in all other levels that this community can influence my life.
I have my actual life situation to prove my point.

But not all is bad

Don't take me wrong there were many good things that came from me starting creating content here in the community and that made me grow not only as a human but also as an artist and content creator. And the fact that I have nothing to show it is in big part my fault. Not blaming anyone else for it.

More than 3200 followers

All I have to say is that if You have followed me with any secondary intentions in a stage that my account was bigger and I had more power but You never interacted with me or even looked at any of my videos. First of all You should be ashamed and second, unfollow me.

Struggling to get likes

If it wasn't for some voting trails I would be getting 10 likes per post and I am being nice when I say 10. I am not even sure that I would be able to get that many.

Low Hive Power

Because the amount I am able to generate in here it is very small whenever something unexpected in my life I have to use this HIVE to pay my bills. It is not an easy decision and I might be losing a lot of money because I believe the price will rice a lot in the future. But it is that or not having money even to pay my rent so I have to do what have to be done.

Tried it all

Always inside of my own limits and what I enjoy to do I have tried many different types of content in here to see if I would be able to please the community but I was never able to do that.

Some big help

I did got the support mainly from the unknown Kpine and Dtube for a good part of my stay in here and for that I am super thankful but other than that were not many the cases that I got bigger supporters of me and what I do. Doing it all by myself it makes it even harder.

4 Years working nonstop

The thing that makes me sad the most is that I know that I have been working and creating content every single day, maybe with a couple of days off that I gave myself, but still I can assure You that I was still thinking on what to do on the day after.

And getting here and seeing myself in this situation is really making me sad. But I think maybe it is because I am too emotional and never liked to enter on this schemes to try and get ahead of other people that I find myself in this situation.

Many amazing friends

I have met so many people in here that have been with me and supported me in many of my low and high moments and they are the reason I am here strong and still going. Because I want to believe that more People like them will come and join the community.

But Now that my 4th is almost here I feel that it is really time to change it up and do things differently.

Be ready.

Coming soon...

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Happy Hive Birthday!

It's okay, I also use Hive to pay the bills atm. I mean there are many others too, you are not the only one!

I see there's not much interaction really going on Hive.

thabk You. And I feel that 4 years in and with the amount of followers I have I should be in a way more comfortable situation. I am really disappointed with myself.

Hi Sergio

I think you have created many great posts over the last for years and I have read many of them. Maybe I didn't always give you an upvote for your posts but definitely, I gave you a few.
I hope you are doing fine here in London because right now it's not easy to live here.

Thank You so much for the message on this post. It means a lot. You are very right. Not easy at all it's been a struggle to me because I was made redundant. So everyday is just another stressful day trying to come out with solutions and nothing seems to work. But we gotta keep pushing. :(

Yeah, it's really tough... but you did okay with DTube yah? You were always inspiring to me...

Thank you so much for the nice words and I am glad to hear that I was useful to You.

Yeah. I was lucky and I had some support by Dtube itself and that was amazing. But still the majority of people never really supported me that much. On the other hand usually always get backlash for the type of content I upload.