I am not used to having birthday parties because I never had one. When we with my siblings were just growing up my mother would sometimes but not always prepare some foods that we can eat. Usually some stir-fried noodles and that's it, no parties, clowns or whatever. Well I could understand because we are not well-off and my father even though was working abroad then for ten years didn't really earn much for such "extravagant" occasions.
Usually my mother would just greet me a sweet "Happy birthday" greeting when it was my n=birthday with or without stir-fried noodles especially when I was grown up already. I am not expecting much either, no gifts, no trips, not much food, nothing.
So it is just okay if my birthday would pass just like any other common day but a greeting is what I appreciate and it usually comes from my mother and not from my father.
This upcoming birthday of mine I would just thank God that I have reached this age and wow I am near middle age already, years passed by like it was just last week that I was just a little boy dragging this plastic toy around our house. My life just stopped after I stopped College and after the doctor told me that I was hepatitis B positive and that I won't get treated for my Kidney disease, after a few years my Kidney conked-off and here I am now suffering from financial ruin and bone complications.
It does suck to be in my position right now but I have to toughen-up and be brave, to sweat it out and endure what is coming left and right against me. Quite a peculiar life and I just consider steem as my gift of all time because of this platform I had met many friends and some I only knew with their avatar names and some just are fighting alongside me with my own battle and I cherish their unwavering and selfless support.
I know that I do not have much to offer in this community, and that i am just a burden to the blockchain and this community and people getting tired of seeing my ugly face and redundant stories. It is because I am in a survival mode and no one is helping me.
That is why I am always grabbing the opportunity to earn a bit so that I could patch up my medical needs because my dialysis will never accepts OIU letters nor the pharmacy would accept leaves as payment, I have to do something or else I will just suffer in misery and pain and all that hardship of lingering death before the death itself.
I just hope that soon I could graduate from some of these burdens that I have because I thought that being a dialysis patient was the greatest burden for me not knowing that its complications really will make my life a living hell. So I thank God for #steem community, my #heroeasofsteem.
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