I feel helpless already with a bit of discomfort gripping me already and just decided to sleep the remainder of the day. I am feeling much full to the brim with liquids because I do not sweat too much and in effect just makes me get breathless faster.
So I won't eat my supper for today and will just eat lightly before my dialysis session God-willing tomorrow morning at 4:30 AM. So I can't wait again to get hooked-up so that I could rid myself of accumulated toxins and extra water build-up in my body.
I also can't wait to enjoy eating an hour after being hooked-up, it is the only moment that I feel normal with regards to having a basic function returned to me in a very short window of time. Some say to eat lightly so that the blood pressure won't crash but since I get hungry at dialysis I am just taking that opportunity to savor a not really delicious food so that I usually eat anyway because of the said reasons.
I just hope that soon I can go for my dialysis three times a week at least, maybe go and live near the dialysis center so I won't travel much and also get to live where my favorite convenience store and restaurant that I buy my food from is located but of course it is easier said than done even to live near my dialysis center, it all just requires tons of money to get coughed out but who knows, maybe I can also achieve those goals if God wills it for me.
I can still make it until tomorrow, this is just what my life revolves into, getting eased-up and then feeling like a craps and then the cycle continues on and on until I either capitulate or take the torch of success about reaching my medical goals and I can't wait to achieve either both. I needed more prayers.